In my eyes.

I got these tears in my eyes
From all the little times
That I didn’t allow myself to cry.
These tears in my eyes
From all those things,
They seem so small
But they feel so big.
We got these tears in our eyes
From all those times
When something hurt us.
They never end
And threaten to flood me in.
Is there really an oceans worth
Or is it just my fears.
I got tears in my eyes
From all those little times
And they seem they’ll never away.

The Sun SHALT Set!

it hit me just the other day like a wave.
okay i’m lying. it was more like a beacon in the mist.
point is, I had a mini epiphany, or at least i hope that’s what it was.
and like any story worth telling it started a little back in the day
when I stopped dreaming because it didn’t seem worth it. i mean dreaming
up your future is never really a waste but I was tired of being disappointed
you know. so i stopped and i just lived.
but now i’m starting to get the feeling that that’s what might be holding me back
right now.
I think that’s why I liked Black Orchid Girl so much, she gave me something to
look forward to. a dream to live for. i’m beginning to think that is what I need.
a dream to live for. long-term goal to work toward.

i’m thinking big now. lavish. extravagant. extraordinary.
I want my bmw 1M with all the fixings. I want my big house in a quiet secluded
suburb. i want my Playstation, desktop pc, Dstv, hooked up to my HD flat
screen TV, all hooked up to my 6.1 speaker surround sound home theater system.
I want my mancave with a fully stocked bar, complete with arcade area; fooseball table,
pool table, and classic arcade game machines and hookah station.
I want my English & american style tailored suited with a white old butler (excuse the
somewhat racist undertone there, or not, whatever… lol).
I wanna get to travelling for no other reason except just doing it.
I got the vision. all I need now is a strategy.
I want it all. now all I need is the motivation.
the sun shalt set on me. not until i’m done with this.
I might be late to the show but you know the old saying right?
i’m honestly just gonna reach past my grasp.

Moonlight

my pretties, my lovelies. the fire is waning, you aren’t here to tend to it. please tend to it. it was only by necessity that I did what I did, I needed to do it. I was not the one who sent you away. I am not angry with you. please do not hate me. come back to me. come dance with me once more. come dance with me under the moonlight. come back to me and dance with me under the moonlight, around the bonfire. come gyrate, ululate, hop, skip, jump, wind, grind, vibrate, step with me. come. come be merry with merry with me under the blanket of dark and, light of the moon and stars. you silly little skamps. my pretty little demons, come. you kissed my soul too well for too long for me to just let you go like so. come back to me and dance with me under the moonlight, around the bonfire. it’s just not as terrifying without you.

Coming Next

The next couple of posts are from a simpler time. These were the things I wrote before I learnt all a lot of the things I know.

Innocent, naïve, impressionable(somewhat)

Back when my world was as close to valhalla as I could hope.

I wrote these partly in an attempt to keep up with the poetry and shakespeare stuff we had in high school, and partly to see if I could and in part to find an outlet for the thing I couldn’t, just wouldn’t, say.

I hope you enjoy them 🙂 😛

be GOOD kids 😀

Trust Me Im Young

Let’s just be

Happy. Loud. Add a bounce and a hop to your step. Ignore your stresses.
Throw caution to the wind and just
laugh out loud and dance. Wear a
smile on our faces.

Drink up, smoke up, snot up, shoot up
hit your buzz. Fuck the fuck out and
fuck shit up. Have fun. Paint the town.
Here some paintball gun and red
pellets. Young, fresh, wild. Be the
menace you wanna be. Do the shit
you wanna do. Live fucking life.

Take that one shot. Because in the morning you have to remember to…

Forever Young

Be GOOD Kids 😀